Remember my "To-Do" List that I wrote in the beginning of December. The one that has been looming over me, reminding me of how I *should* be handling things during the Christmas Season.
I've had to look over it several times this past week. I have to admit, I am a little bummed on how things are turning out. We have had our share of illnesses and the temperatures have been waaaayyyy below freezing for most of the month. And with that combination, we haven't been able to go out and enjoy the area's Holiday attractions. Which makes me sad, since I have not taken ONE Christmas picture (except for when we picked up the tree).
So Saturday afternoon, we celebrated Christmas with Jeremy's family, early since they are heading down south to spend Christmas with my sister-in-law Beth's family.
I dressed the boys in some cute outfits and wanted to get just ONE photo of them. PLEASE!!! After about 20 takes, I gave up. And I will confess I was ticked off!! All I wanted was one good photo of them.
Jeremy pulled me to the side and said, "You really freaked out. It's okay!" Then the guilt overwhelmed. Yes, I know it's okay. I know that if I don't get the "perfect" photo, it's not going to be the end of the world. But at the same time, I let the frustration build up and the expectations go way beyond what I should have. It's a silly thing - a photo. But that photo was the build up of not being able to enjoy all the festivities this month and I lost it!
I lost it! Is that really what I want my kids to remember about Christmas. Mom following them around to get the "perfect" photo and losing her mind because of it. Man, how humbling and embarrassing is that?