I am tired! I mean all.the.time! I cannot wait until February 12 - that is when I am going to the Doctor and I am NOT leaving until there is a reason to all of this, or at least a game plan to figure it out! But that really isn't the reason for this post - well sorta! As you might recall, I haven't had much free time lately. My dad comes over 3 afternoons a week (during the boys "rest" time) to allow me to go work out! And I have mentioned a few other times that as much as I appreciate and love the time, it has given me NO down time to unwind! I put the boys down for their naps (although Evan has decided that naps are for babies and downright refuses to take one) and they get up pretty much about the time that I get out of the shower. So it has worn me out!
I was in the shower yesterday, thinking about this predicament and came up with a list of why I am doing this to myself, in hopes that it will encourage me to continue and that the end result outweighs the temporary craziness! So here it is from least to greatest:
5. I really want to get back into my size 6 clothes. They are soooo cute. I walk into my closet occasionally and long for the day that I can just throw on any thing in my closet without the worry that it won't fit!
4. I REALLY love to eat! I mean - love.to.eat!! And nothing really healthy for me. So I can justify the slice of pizza if I know that I have worked out that day! Once I get to my goal weight that is. Right now, I am super strict with what I am putting into my body!
3. The runner's high is becoming quite addicting. Even on the days that I really don't want to head to the gym, knowing that I will feel great afterward is enough to get me there and at least attempt to work out!
2. I have found that running really clears my mind. It is the most amazing feeling for about an hour after I am finished with my workout, especially when I get a great run in. All the stresses of life almost disappear for a small window of time. The argument that I had with a friend, the craziness of boys stuck inside of the house, the 10,000 items on my to do list, the fact that I didn't get any sleep the night before - all of these things and more take a back seat and I can honestly say that I feel de-stressed and relaxed. And it is an amazing feeling!!
And the #1 reason that I am putting myself through this craziness....
These 2 guys! I want to be that mom who runs with her kids, plays with them, teaches them new things. Not the mom that sits on the sidelines and watches from afar! I wanted boys!! God has blessed with two amazing, spunky, active boys and I don't want to miss a second of that! I want my boys to look up to me, to be proud that I am their mother! I want them to have a role model on healthy eating and exercise! I want to be able to be tackled, to race, to jump rope all without getting tired and worn out! I believe that this is one of the best gifts I can give these two boys - a healthy, happy mom!
So, now it's your turn, what keeps you going?