I've mentioned before the budding romance between Carter and running. And if you have been checking out this ol' blog for awhile you know that I had a personal goal to run a race a couple of years back. What I haven't talked about (at least I don't think I have yet) is the fact that I totally gave up on all things fitness and taking care of myself back in April when my doctor revealed that he couldn't find anything AT ALL that was causing my ongoing joint and muscle pain. So I gave up! After 4 years of trying to find out what is wrong with me, I gave up. I mean come on, if I'm in pain all the time and nothing seems to help, why not just do nothing and eat whatever I want and be lazy!
Okay, so probably right about now, many of you are shaking your heads and asking what the heck I was thinking with that logic. I know, I know! But at the time, I was done trying!
So fast forward 4 months, 10 extra pounds and ongoing pain, I came to a sad and embarrassing conclusion of my actions.
Jeremy and I enjoy taking the boys on walks whenever the weather permits. But our walks soon became "runs" with Carter. He wanted to run the whole time. After 4 months of taking crappy care of myself, walks with the boys were getting more and more difficult. Then you add in that running that Carter wanted to do and I could barely keep up! I mean, I was completely winded after "running" with Carter around our block.
The embarrassment and the shame kicked in real quickly.
How could I NOT keep up with a 3 year old! Seriously?
Now if you recall, I HATE RUNNING! I don't look good running! But I came to a conclusion. I HAVE to do it for Carter! Jeremy is naturally athletic and will run around with the boys, but he HATES running for exercise! Carter needs someone that runs. I would hate to think that he would stop running if he didn't have anyone to look up to. Am I making sense? Probably not! But I'll continue...
I realized in August that my health choices I was making were extremely selfish on my part! I NEED to be healthy for my family. I couldn't continue allowing myself to dig deeper and deeper into that unhealthy lifestyle. My kids need me to be healthy, whether I'm in pain or not!
I mean come on, I'm in pain whether I work out and I 'm in pain if I don't. So why not at least be healthier and in pain!
So I have rededicated myself into running. I am currently in the seventh week of the Couch-to-5k program. I was hoping to get myself and Carter into a 5k before the winter (Carter in a "fun run" associated with a 5k, not an actual 5k yet), but that doesn't look like it's going to happen. But by next spring I should be fully ready to jump into the 5k circuit so that Carter can see his mama running and he can join in on the kid runs too!
Am I crazy? Yes! I am crazy for Carter! And if he wants to run, this mama will run with him until his heart's content! Then come home and take a large dose of ibuprofen! ;-)