As I sit here typing, it has been over 37 hours since I have slept - LITERALLY! I am exhausted, worn out, hyped up, jittery, overwhelmed, thankful all wrapped up together. Having a hard time unwinding, because of the night ahead, I decided to post a picture and maybe get a little bit of what's been going on in my head out, so that I can actually go to sleep some time tonight. Nothing puts life into more perspective than this:
Thursday was an extremely tough day. Ask any mom what their biggest fear is being a mom, and I think most moms will say, being completely helpless as you watch your child in trouble. Being too drained to rehash the past days events, let me just share a few things that are on my heart.
In the last 37 hours, I saw God work in ways that are completely humbling to me. Every moment of those 37 hours were beautifully orchestrated so that my Carter was taken care of, not by me, but by his Heavenly Father. Here are just a few of the many examples:
- Jeremy and my dad getting to the house exactly at the same time so that Evan was taken care of and Jeremy and I could immediately take Carter to Urgent Care.
- Evan not freaking out - and if you know Evan - you know that that is a miracle in itself.
- Urgent Care not being open yet, instead my Doctor's office bending backwards to take care of Carter's condition. Thursdays, our pediatrician's office stays open until 8. Coincidence, I think not!
- A nurse who nurtured my son as if he was her own. Wiped cold compresses on his neck as he was vomiting, giving him a bath immediately after he did, hugged him, kissed his chubby toes, tickled and played with him so that he was as comfortable as possible. Nurse Jules even skipped out of her dinner break so that she was there when we needed her! She went over and beyond what was expected of her. She sat with us, so that we wouldn't be alone in the room. She shared with us, laughed with us and yes even cried with me!
- Unfortunately, Carter did have to go to Children's over night, but the outpouring of support from nurses and staff continued.
- Friends surrounding us in prayer, text messages, facebook and twitter messages, and email. There is just something about knowing that the body of Christ is surrounding you when they are not physically with you.
- A friend's pastor came to the hospital to pray with us because our friend mentioned to him that we were at the hospital.
- Doctors who came in to just chit chat with us.
- Nurses who hung out in our room just to flirt with my Carter C. He was a hit in the wing we were staying in. He entertained every one who came in to check on him. He flirted with every nurse in the unit. He did not fight any procedure that needed to be done. Each nurse pulled me aside to tell me what a gem I had in Carter. I already knew how amazing a child he is, but hearing it from others always encourages a mother's heart. I even heard a few, "he is the most easy going, obedient, trusting 2 year old we've seen"
- And yes, the fact that I went 37 hours without sleep, yet was able to function. It was not my strength that got me through. It was God's!
And with that, I am now going to bed. Praying for a peaceful night. And a night that Carter can rest and heal! Good night!